Yes, I want to go. Yes, I do love travelling. But the fact is that travelling always makes me anxious (different country, different language, don't know anyone, don't know what to expect etc.), and the only way that I could deal with it was pretending it was not there. La-la-la can't hear you, can't see you. But eventually, maintaining the denial was becoming more painful than facing the source of my anxiety, so I decided to do a reading about the whole... thing.
I used the Flower Speaks deck because nowadays it seems to be one of the few oracles that I can still use for myself. I don't know what's happening, but suddenly any self-readings I do using either the tarot or the PCO (or even my beloved Witches Runes) just make me more confused than enlightened. Thus, I have been saving these oracles to use for others. I guess the decks that work best for me are the one I love but never bothered to memorise the cards, so I still need the companion book... that keeps me from confusing myself, since I don't have many preconceived ideas about the cards.
But I digress. I did a reading and it was amazing how it helped me to see my situation under a different light... and also to recognise what emotions/fears inside me are making the whole thing harder than it has to be.
My question was what am I supposed to be learning from this experience?