Finding an internship in Psychology during the pandemics has been no easy feat. Many places that used to offer positions for interns have reduced their staff significantly. But, thanks to a friend, I have managed to get an internship at an educational institution. The drawback? It's going to be entirely online.
It makes sense – all my classes and even my job are online these days – , but I confess I can't help but feel somewhat sceptical. It'll be my first practical experience in Psychology, an area that demands interactions and opportunities to observe, and having to experience it all through a screen doesn't sound very exciting. So I did a reading asking what should I expect of this internship?
First of all, the numbers in this spread are all low and most are even (the 3♣ being the only exception). This tells me that the experience as a whole may be more underwhelming than expected or hoped for. There is not Diamond card, which makes sense since I won't be getting paid, but it also denotes a lack of ambition, energy and creativity. The amount of black cards also speaks of a colder, more introspective vibe here.
The 2♥ + 4♠ make a interesting, balanced combination, that mitigates somewhat the first impressions given by the numerology. The Lovers in the Head position show that the internship will involve me emotionally. The 4♠ is a cold, aggressive wind that asks us to take shelter. And the Lovers are right above it, tied and naked... in short, vulnerable.
I don't think the cards point at something dramatically bad, only that this internship will force me to face my own vulnerabilities. I have been a good Psychology student so far, but can I be a good Psychologist professional? Also, the fact that the two figures are tied in the 2♥ makes me think I'll not have a lot of "freedom" in my activities. This is reinforced by the two runes I drew, which I'll come back to later.
The 4♠ + 6♠ also add to the impression of "cold" I felt before. The 6♠ (The Ruins) in the Heart position speaks strongly of loneliness to me. There won't be much spontaneous emotional warmth or support. The focus will be on responsibility, pragmatic work, bureaucracy, organisation and other Earth-related characteristics.
The 3♣ in the Foot position puzzles me a bit. It's the only odd number card, and the 3s always make me think of the steps in a stair, that allow you to go up or down. But either way, you have to move. I think this experience, in spite of its limitations, will help me to grow. My state of mind will contribute to how much I can "take" from it. Also, being in the position of practical things, the 3♣ also reinforces an idea of introspection, since it's a card of silence and careful ponderation.
The geomancy for this spread is Tristitia + Caput Draconis = Conjunctio. Tristitia stands for sadness, indifference, boredom, which I believe reflect well how I feel about this situation. Caput Draconis, however, is a very good figure that points to positive beginnings. I think it's saying that my mind is creating this bleak outlook more than the events themselves. Conjunctio tells me the situation will balance itself out, and the cons will not outweigh the pros.
All in all, I get the impression that this internship will not be breakthrough experience. It'll be a bit dry, but still I will be able to grow from it. I have to take it as it comes and make most of it, because my mental and emotional state will influence a lot on how much I can enjoy it.
Last, but not least, the Witches Runes: I got the Eye and the Crossroads. These two symbols together make me think of a "blocked vision" and of "feeling blocked because one is being watched". And, indeed, even though my experience will be online, I have a lot of people watching and taking notes of what I do. I think this relates interestingly to the "limitation of movement" I saw in the 2♥. There won't be much room for innovation or experimentation, it'll be a tranquil but matter-of-fact experience overall.