This is exactly what I am living right now. The "Head" of my last reading was the 5 of Clubs (The Wind Cape)... the "Foot" was the 10 of Spades (Terrene), telling me to slip a bit into a state of acceptance, instead of fighting this 'void' crazily (as it is my tendency). Stay grounded, but don't harden yourself too much (like Morgana, Queen of Spades, would).
I've been trying to do that, but the discomfort is way too great.
I always thought that the 5 of Clubs only meant 'confusion' or 'a head full of ideas'. Now I am living the 5♣ and it is at least 10 times more disturbing than I ever expected it to be. I've been sleeping badly, eating badly, I can't concentrate at work, my natural body rhythms feel thrown off... The mind overreacts because it knows that the crossroad is coming.
Or maybe it's already here?
You can't go back to where you were... you can try to deny the 'hurricane', but that means staying forever in the number 4. It's not a bad place to be, but if you are meant to go forward, it is quite stale.
